Random Pacman

Nyuuuuu, it's getting closer!

The day classes start again, that is. Come to think of it, I still haven't asked anyone when it is yet lol.

*makes reminder to remind self*

Soooo, mostly random stuff and updates.

The amount of pics on my blog will probably decrease now as I lost my camera on my Japan trip. Thank goodness I lost it on the first day and my tour giude was nice enough to lend me his till the battery ran out.

Imagine if I lost it on the last day. Damn dulan lor no pics at all.

Actually already dulan I lost it at all. -.-

But oh my gosh, the snow is sooo beautiful. Despite freezing my butt off at times, it was still so awesome.

It's like that lovely fluffy white blanket of snow you imagine it to be is like 38168275672 times more beautiful.

We trudged through it, made snowballs, had fights, made snow angels, caught it and even attempted to build a snowman a few times. It was really fun. ♥♥♥

Thanks dad for letting us go. :)

So okay, some random pics first.

LIKE CUTE DOGGY JB. SQUEEEEEE~

Food from Dave's Deli is yums. Cabonara win.

Cute hedgehog.

Cute mama hedgehog with cute baby hedgehogs!

Lunchies at Ole Ole Bali with Ash and Anna!

Too bad Sam tak jadi come coz we basically went from restaurant to restaurant all day. :P

Ben's model!

Nice right?

This side seems a bit zen-ish to me lol.

Teeny bed lol.

And reception area. It's a hiker's club I think.

Feel like hacking visiting his blog and posting up these pics in his for him, it's so bare.

Awesome decorations for Christmas in 1U. It's a tiny town!

Eddie koko's birthday dinner at Crocodile Farm Restaurant.

This chicken was epically yummy.

:)

Hahaha.

Help cut cake!

Awww, a card! :)

Whatchu get?

Omigosh!

An iPad! :D

Mostly if not all camera phone now. D:

Waterfront decorations are nice too.

Really pretty.

Xmas tree!

Dressed up for Christmas! And liking the gifts from Japan? :D

OMG SO MUCH FOOD. ♥♥♥

Personalized wei. :D

Crabs too!

Bloody huge. o.o

Dessert!

Sis and I quickly picked our flavours because the last time we dallied, we got really retarded stuff. D:

Fiona is a Christmas baby! :D

Awww :)

Then it was gift exchange time! :D

Lookit at what I got~~~~

Cute leh. :D

Still haven't named it yet. Suggestions?

Sis got extra gift because she picked the special card. :D

Chocolates! ♥

Okay, the rest is mostly more random pics again liao.

Like the build-a-bear in Parade!

OMG since when Malaysia got build-a-bears wan? :D

And marimo which is super strong lol.

Yes we were bored okay. :P

Tang yuen night? It's a bit plain because we did it in a rush.

Mum randomly dumped a container of flour on the table while we were having dinner and told us to make some lol.

AND DONE.

I want a good camera! D:

P.S.: I don't know why but I found this hilarious.

Estranged? Not Really.

I love them.

I really do. At least I think I do. I feel sad when they feel sad and happy when they feel happy. I want to support them when they’re down and help them when they need it. I am willing to sacrifice for them and I feel the need to protect them.

I hope that’s part of what loving someone is.

But I feel like the problem is that I can’t spend too much time with them. It’s like we just can’t mix well that way. Like chalk and cheese. Like day and night. Like marshmallows and pizza.

Wait, no. That last one might work out.

Like… Like oil and water. You mix them up and they seem perfectly fine churning together in the glass at first. But give it time and they soon start to separate into that two distinct layers. You just can’t keep them together for long.

It’s like that with them sometimes. I’m fine hanging out for the while, just chilling and stuff. We talk, we laugh, we get about.

But sooner or later, we inevitably start rubbing on each other’s corners. Everything will seem fine but somehow someone with start something that will lead to stupid things being thrown at each other with vehemence that is not always justified or reasonable.

And it’s far from a pretty sight when that happens. There’re tantrums and arguments and blame being tossed back and forth and for one brief moment, I could swear that I actually hate them with all my guts.

But when I calm down, I find it stupid: most of the things we argue about. And I don’t know if the other party sees it that way but I think they sometimes do. Sometimes they don’t, and those are the ones that simmer at the back of our minds, ready to boil over in a blast of rage the next time an argument happens.

I don’t know if they feel the same way, but I see the pattern anyway. No matter how hard they try to draw me in, they can’t possibly not see the most basic of outlines of how it will go. The timeline here plays such a huge part in how much we get along.

It’s not that I don’t always hate spending time with them, it’s just that I feel like I can’t. I do think we’re better nowadays as we’ve matured or learnt more patience. But it is still not smooth sailing and it feels like the more we force it, the more ill the feelings get. It’s so taxing, having to keep the tempers and eye rolling to a down low, and it’s worth it. At times.

Other times I feel like there is not point to it. I myself feel completely satisfied hanging out with them in short intermittent periods of time; I feel that’s enough to make them understand that our relationship is still important.

Problem is, I don’t think they see it that way. That’s when the misunderstanding starts. Subsequently, it piles on and on, by and by. Till it reaches that pinnacle.

And boom.