Each Step

What do you see when you look into the future?

The excitement can be so scary sometimes.

Wondering what’s going to happen to you.

Where you will be then, which country, what kind of abode, how you furnish it.

What job you would have, whether it’s something steady or erratic, how you’d live with it day to day, how high you’d be in the career ladder.

How much you’d earn, what you would spend on, how your lifestyle would be.

Who’ll you be with, how you’d treat them and how they’d treat you, how often you see each other, what would you do together.

Who would be the new people you meet, who you would keep as friends or colleagues or acquaintances or even rivals.

Would you wake up at 7 in the morning? Get the kids ready for school and drive to work. Meet up with a friend and have lunch together. After that, you head over to the office to see the progress. Come home for a nice, warm dinner and spend the night relaxing and laughing with the spouse while nagging at your kids to study. You tuck them in around 10 together and sneak out again for a late movie together.

Or would you sleep till the sun is high in the sky? Make yourself an early lunch of leftovers and go into your home office to start typing up documents and making phone calls. You continue this till its dinnertime. Then you order take out to eat while watching TV. Later, your friends come pick you up and you hang with them till just before dawn breaks.

Maybe you would wake up at 6 to go jogging together? You come back and snooze till 10 and wake up to a breakfast prepared for you. Get yourself ready for work and head out to the bus stop to get to work. Flirt with some co-workers and laugh with others. You head over to a restaurant after work to meet up and have dinner together. You have a couple of drinks before heading home to have a Wii marathon till 3am.

Let's say you’d have to wake up at 5 and cycle to work. It’s so meagre a pay but you have to do it anyway just to pay off the debts. You come home to an empty rental room around 7 with some fast food as supper. You can barely afford to feed yourself and pay the bills. Most of the nights, you sleep with the fan off just to save money. You’re growing a belly but you retire right after dinner anyway as work tires you out and you have to wake up at 5 the next day again.

Any of those circumstances could befall anyone. Sure it may depend on your strength, your will, your smarts or your courage. But luck definitely comes into play. I’m not sure if luck and fate even exists, if there is such a thing as one’s destiny. But there are certain unexplained forces that could be taken as coincidences or proof.

Sometimes a decision we make affects us in a huge but not so severe way. Or the small ones that might or might not change our whole lives without us even knowing it. We may welcome them depending on how adventurous we are or shun it for the safer road.

But sometimes the decision is so great that it not only affects you but others in your life as well. Sometimes you might be afraid to make that decision. It could all work out but some many arrows point towards negative. Yet that foolish tiny ray of hope says that there is a chance you could and that’s enough. You could, or you could not. Both have equal degrees of maybe’s. And you’re still scared but you have to put one foot forward soon. The path behind you is already disappearing. But which foot? Which path?

It’s very confusing and you’re probably not prepared to face it but you need to make the choice anyway because that’s part of the journey.

WELL. I don’t really know where this post was supposed to head. It was just me spewing random thoughts from my head as I read OP. Fuck, I think I’m addicted.

I need to study. And paint my nails. Night.

One Day

I think this shall be my greeting from now on. Till I get bored of it anyway.

Though the :D is not really my mood right now.

I'm supposed to be finishing a whole damn poster by tonight (Hui Hui's gonna kill me). And a presentation I haven't even started on by tomorrow (Shandi's gonna revive me then kill me again). Not to mention finishing off stats project (this one memang suicidal).

The highlight of today would be Crystal and her club's awesome awesome Hairspray performance tonight.

IS PWNSOME K.

Pics soon. :D

EDNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. ♥♥♥

So anyway, said awesome performance person also requested me to do this one day thing where you spam pics about a single day in your life.

I'm only doing this to please my baby because honestly, only you and a couple other peeps still keep up with the drivel, babe.

My life also very boring but here goes:

Basically the day didn't really start out awesome.

If fact it started out downright crappy. Even if you count from midnight or from the time I woke up also crappy.

Because I was studying for a organic chem quiz all night. Slept perhaps an hour or so and got up to study again.

Started getting ready around 8 and got to uni to continue studying.

The early morning coke was an attempt to keep myself awake and hyper but all it did was make me wanna pee during the quiz. -___-

Dead look from lack of sleep.

So anyway, the test went terribly, moreover because it's chemistry. But what's new, eh?

Got to the library right after that to do our leaflet for English.

At least that was kinda fun-ish.

Still dead-ish too.

Come on, just had my minute amount of brain juice squeezed dry and boiled a thousand times over. This is excusable.

Shaleen being all happy.

Getting annoyed because I kept taking photos. :P

Woot! Our topic which we got an A for!

Funny side story:

Mum came into my room the other night while I was editting this and straightaway demanded 'Ying, why are you looking at this?!'

WTF. Seriously.

So back to that Friday.

Instead of having lunch, I met up with my college friends.

At the basketball court, cuz Ash was playing. :D

Me and Lee Lee saje tau clap and cheer. :P

Yeah, you go girl! ♥

Stalking shirtless dude. JK.

But seriously. Not bad.

Yay! The lovelies. :)

After some munchies Lee and I had to head back in while Ash joined her med friends.

Lecture time. Bleh.

I broke my pinky nail! D:

And as usual, I don't know how I broke it. -.-

Wtf, Shaleen took stalker pic of Sharifah. All the way on the other side of the auditorium. -.-

And then come photobomb nice pic of Nyat. -.-

So a couple of lectures later, I had to stay back rehearse with Sharifah. End up also didn't perform but learnt the song already wtf.

Return of the return of the Grudge.

Or that's what I assumed would be captioned by Mr J.

Belaian Jiwa! Yes, I actually don't know that song.

After practice, had to rush back for a reunion with the 6I peeps.

Wah, so long never see them already.

Is this ok?

Whatever la, over already lol.

Dunno why super jam that evening. Everywhere also jam. T___T

So after picking up Aaron, we headed to Skewers. Bit pricey but the food's resonably okay.

Is not nice! D:

So had this instead. He helped me push the lime in, least he could do after I endured the jam to pick him up. :D

Yeah, so basically the food is meat on skewers. Lol duh.

My lamb! :DDD

Okay, over.

Better get started on poster or I'm dead.

Some Story Of My Life

Well, see.

I got the offers, I got the passion, I (think I) got the brains.

I just don't have the funds.

I must have used up all my pitiful amount of good karma on my SPM results.

Well, that was a short rant but I've no mood and am supposed to be doing Basic Calc practise here in the E-Lab.

So. Here's what to do when you're not a Monash student but stuck on Monash grounds for one and a half hours, without a card (because they needs cards to go like EVERYWHERE and it's cool but mafan at the same time) and it's raining outside.

Abuse your poor camera for all it's worth.

FLY KITE PERSON likes to call this Edward Cullen shots.

I assume it's because it is the sky right before it rains and it has always given me a calm and serene, yet expectant feeling at the same time. The colours are beautiful and the scent of the rain is the strongest then.

The faint foreboding you get that gives you slight chills.

Only when it started raining we had to migrate to the cafeteria.

I said I'd use this as my FB picture but I like my current one so chill a bit first.

Rawr Crystal. =]

Attempt at emo but phail because we not pro camwhores.

I'm not even gonna try to justify this.

Weird lighting makes peeps look yellowish.

But if you face this way you get that awesome fang-less vampire look.

Omg, maybe those really are Edward Cullen shots. T__T

Damn fail at camwhore wan, must pretend to put hand there only while Ben actually took the shot. /hehehe

BOO-NESS. ;D

Hair shots.

Still yellowish.

I love my amethyst contacts from Sam.

But I'm back to plain now because I have a bunch of those I haven't used in ages. I feel so BORING. D:

Ben's girly eyes? :P

BLOB IS MY PENGUIN FROM MY P BUDDY. *hearts*

Yes, P does stand for penguin. DUH moment.

My cousin's ring that OMG I HAVEN'T RETURNED and doesn't fit on Ben's finger. *coughstubbycough*

More Edward Cullen shots lolol. 8D

Is actually still raining but you can't see.

Ear shots!

His ear funny right?

He didn't believe us at first but here's your proof.

Realised we has a mole at almost the same area.

More hair!

He thinks he has a bald spot. -__-

I love them! :D

I mean my shoes, not my legs of course. Not that perasan. :P

AND THEN FINALLY CRYS CAME OUT AND WE WERE HAPPI AND GOT A TOUR OF THE PLACE. :DDD

Is actually very nice, Monash. I feel so traitorous just saying that lol.

WELL. I think those was just about the VAINEST photos in the history of this blog. I think, if memory serves me.

Back to the ever random shots of my life.

Grand piano in one of the lecture theatres. I don't know why it's there and not in the Student Lounge or Auditorium or something.

Omfgtehcute Famous Amos cookies mum bought for Megan, Gwenette(sp?) and Janice.

OMG EVEN CUTER THAN COOKIES RIGHT?

OMGOMGOMGOMG~

Note: I just realised this post has a lot of CAPS. Perhaps it be because I have an 8-6 straight day with only one 45 min break for lunch and this be a lame attempt at getting hyped up.

It's kinda working? Not really.

Stoning in McD at Pyramid for I forgot why. Think we were just so entranced by his drawing.

I told you right? The thing is super hard to control and is slightly off.

BUT THEN RIGHT, just after he finished it, my bloody phone hanged and the picture wasn't saved!

Rawr at whoever called me then and made my phone hang.

This shot is the only memory we has of it. T_T

Of course, he got all artist-y and said this was nothing (I know me and Crys were O_O too) but it was still a waste!

Can you spot his name? :P

Random shot of this super adorable mouse as I was waiting at the bus stop opposite uni last week.

Cute right?! I approached it so slowly it didn't even run when I got close.

Is nice drink, says Sharifah.

AND OMG WEDGES. CHEESY WEDGES. xDDDD

Well, back to basic calc.

P.S.: I want my vet science!!

P.P.S.: Terry, get well soon! Your family worries about you even all the way from Australia. D: