Irony

The irony of life.

Today, I took my driving test and passed. But because I missed classes for the day, I failed today’s Bio practical.

I didn’t really think I would pass my driving test as I’m not really focused on the road, my instructor says. I do look forward to Bio practicals though.

Haha, very funny.

In retrospect, I don’t know if that driving test was worth it after all.

Plus, if I had gone another day, I might have gotten someone else other than that PMS-ing ‘emo lady’ (as my friend calls her) for my examiner.

She failed my friend last week even though he’s a great driver, and she also failed the first candidate that was tested before me today. She drove them back halfway through. O.o

So obviously I was quite nervous when I got into the car. But I just remembered what my instructor and my friends taught me and I think I did pretty well. Thanks guys.

Didn’t stop her from criticizing all the way. And I hate it when people call me ah moi. -___-

YHBW…

I came back in a high to find out that I failed my practical. Wow, didn’t that send me crashing back down to earth.

My butt still hurts.

And as I laid flat on my carpet in my room, with only the feel of tears of frustration flowing down, all I could think of was that you’re a great lecturer, a very disciplined one, but you’re not a very good mum.

I didn’t need rebuke or chiding at that time, just a little comfort. You seem to care more about the image I out up but not what’s hurting me. Maybe that’s not true, and I’m being harsh. But it sure seems like it. I sought comfort from smses from my friends instead.

Whatever.

Not to mention I have 6 computing tasks that are due tomorrow but I can’t complete most of them because the files I need are in the college’s computer.

The tasks that are due tomorrow? I need my dad’s laptop to complete them (those that don’t need files from college). And the battery just ran out.

Oh oh oh! And the modem is spoilt.

I’m still randomly bursting out in tears for no apparent reason. Well, maybe there is but I’m trying to ignore that.

I really need one of those chill pills I hear people talking about.

All in all, I still can’t decide if this was a good day or a bad one.

Hard luck,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Typing this on Word. Will post it up tomorrow if I have time.

P.P.S. : My mum will dice me if she reads this. So I’ll say goodbye to everyone first, just in case. Goodbye, everyone!

P.P.P.S. : I love postscripts.

P.P.P.P.S. : This blog is becoming depressing. -.-

*sprinkles confetti and streamers*

There. Much better. =)

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Added: The play (Love = tan 90, cool name right?) wasn't that bad. 6 outta 10 for a school play. Not as bad a YY say la. -.- Some of them were good. And my heels are killing me.

Pics added from Nerissa's cam:

Left to right (names from FB) : Sukie, LiKhim, me(?), May Jin, Lee Wei, YY
Below: Nerissa

Oh, and turns out, its 6 Word tasks, 2 Powerpoint and 3 Photoshop. Lucky we got Ms to stretch the deadline to Monday.

It's All About The Image

First impression counts.

Don't we all know it.

First impressions are what people perceive of you during the first meeting, the first imprint you leave on someone as they don't really know anything else about you to go on with.

Today I walked past this person (lets call them X) and I mentioned to YY that I didn't really take to her. And the thing is, I hardly know X.

She said I based alot on first impression. I thought about that and turns out, it's true to certain extent. I did judge this particular person on first impression.

X didn't leave that great an impression on me the first time we met. And heck, if even someone as sweet as Lee Wei (sweet being an assumption because for all we know, Sir could be right and she’s actually some psycho. Kidding! ) feels that X is ‘not very nice’, then there’s not much more to say.

When we look at someone for the first time, we take in their clothing, looks, posture and all that. Then they start to interact and we look at facial expressions, speech or telling gestures.

Some might say that’s giving your verdict way too fast. And again, that’s true to only a certain extent. Because there are certain people where from the first time you look at them and exchange looks, you just get this feeling of either partiality or aversion to that person.

The only fair thing would be to give them the benefit of the doubt. Not be biased or prejudiced and reserve judgment for the while.

And therein lies the importance of the second impression.

A wise friend once said (ok that line made me giggle) that first impression is extremely important but it’s the second impression that will testify your perception of the person.

The second time you come on contact with the person will either verify your perception or throw it into a 180 degrees turn.

It’s only after the first few times, when you’ve really gotten to know the person and have a good idea and who they really are, when it’s safe to let the guard down.

Even if someone make a mistake at some point, it’s usually smoothened over by others' opinion of them and dutifully justified. They would think: ‘Hey, its her. She can’t possibly have said that!’

So unless you’re a lying bitch, try to make your first impression a true one.

Oh, and I am again reminded about how much I hate people with a huge ego. Go stuff all that inflated air up your crack why don’t you?

On another note, I found out a lot more about matriculation that turns out, isn’t all that suitable for someone wanting to be a vet. Someone wanting to be a vet on a money and time budget. So there’s still some considering to do.

Smoke,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Got lotsa homework and assignments this weekend. No, Foundation Year is not as free after all, Keith. -.-

Oh joy, another essay to start on, about ISA. Yes, that would be a fun topic to write about if it were just ranting but we gotta write it all formal and hand-up-to-lecturer-able so it’s no fun anymore. It’s just another mind-blowing(-up) essay we have to write. As it the first blardy one wasn’t bad enough. Lets go pour acid on my brain again.

P.P.S. : And yeah, I realize that the postscript itself was a mini rant, but I could’ve gone on for hours and bore you all to death in front of your screen. I just don’t want to imagine the amount of drool on the keyboard is all.

P.P.P.S. : Blah...

Road Not Taken?

Two roads diverge in the yellow wood of my life.

Which do I choose?

On the one hand, if (and it's a really big IF as the entry requirement is very high) I do get the matriculation for vet science, I'll get to do what I've been wanting to do for ages.

The cons are that I'll have to up and go from KDU which I feel like I've settled in so well with my friends and teachers. I've got books, my student card and lab lockers already.

Also, I'll be studying for about 5-6 years in a local U. I would really like to try to get out of this country and live independently for a while.

And even IF I do get in, I'll have to maintain my grades. Once there are signs of deterioration, you're out. If that happened, I'd be lost and it'd be a waste of a year.

But if I don't go, then I'll be stuck doing something I'm only half-hearted in achieving. I'll be giving up this really great opportunity.

I think in the end, I know which path I will choose: to do mat in vet science.

But at the same time, I feel as if I'll be giving up something huge to me, not academic-wise but for myself.

But as Jon said, I can always settle down again.

The only way I'll turn this opportunity down is if:

- Physics and not Bio is a cumpulsory subject. I cannot cope with that subject and I'm not being self-depreciating but being realistic.

- It's in BM. My BM is horrible, I'll never be able to handle it and get the grades needed. But checked already, it's in English.

- I don't get chosen. Not much of an option, is it? -.-

I'll be upset to get chosen, because I know what I will have to do. Yet, if I'm not, I'll be far more devastated. Weighting my priorities at the moment.

I mean, see how much fun I have in Bio classes?

Mr Jefri was sick so he couldn't do an experiment with us and let us do this instead. It was still pretty fun.

The atoms and bonds become...

A pentose sugar or a frustose...

Or a galactose molecule...

Which paired with a alpha-glucose, becomes a lactose molecule

(see the green oxygen bond?)

Water molecules!

Sam's alpha-maltose and my lactose = oligosaccharide

(chunted word right?!)

Lee Wei, YY, Sam's and my molecules all become some unknown

polysaccharide! (since got 8 molecules liao)

Cellulose molecule (made up of beta-glucose)

See how much Bio rocks over Phy? Hehe... *runs*

Decision-making: not my strong point.

Pathways,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Added new pics in CNY piccies!

Concrete Front

I can't get through to you.

And I keep getting the feeling that I never will.

I'm sorry.

Illiterate

I finally learnt to take a screenshot!

W00t~!

Yes, I know you're all thinking 'WTF, not like got a degree in quantum physics also, 7 year old also know la!'

But I didn't. UNTIL NOW.

This is my first ever screenshot. Well, second since I accidentally deleted the first. ^.^"

It's of Quackers directing me HOW to do a screenshot.

clickz to enlarge (I hope)

Freaking noob-ish right? I've seen people do it for ages but I myself never enquired how to do so. UNTIL NOW.

And I was instructed to say how awesome the Lord of Duckness is for teaching me. Everybody go 'Yay...' ;P

Beeteedoubleyew, I was forced to write a political/historical essay yesterday and my brain is slightly addled still.

Here's the equation my friends had to put up with:

first day back in college + blardy essay + fucked up PMS = anal-retentive bitch

The PMS is just an excuse to act bitchy really, it's actually no big deal. It was the essay that was the killing part. Those types are not my strong point.

Blarh...

Have a nice day!

Noobs,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Sounds like 'boobs' but don't mind me. Still mad with a side of moodswings.

CNY piccies!

Here's how this family celebrates this Ox year CNY!

We arrived in Penang two days before chinese new year. We stayed at the g hotel since staying at our relatives' houses for over a week would be troubling them too much.

Nieces and Gaik jie jie watching me struggle with the goggles

Went swimming with my sis and cousin to work off some weight. Had to borrow my sister's pink goggles, lawl.

My nieces had just recovered from flu so they couldn't join us and could only watch. Aww...

The pool lounge

Chu Yi and we're all dressed up! Cute leh...

My cousin Yimei (whom I only meet during CNY D: ) , me and my sis

Breakfast at Dome. We weren't there since we were off visiting in Air Hitam. But the pics were taken by my cousins' cam and here's Janice eating Minestrone soup!

Dinner at Da Yi's house in Butterworth

We had a popiah snack first...

Then the real thing: steamboat! Our table (only :P) even had a grill!

Next day, celebrating my grandparent's 60th wedding anniversary!

My nieces especially GamGam (Megan but she calls herself Megam, lol) , the awesomest, most creative posers ever! And probably the youngest camwhorers I know!

Pose: Yawn...

My cousin (their mum) is still pretty, even after being a mother to those two hyperactive devils for almost half a decade.

Pose summore...I gave her bunny ears!

The food

We're appraising the food? More like sneaking jelly to eat first. Heh...

My cousin, doing what he does best: opening wine bottles to drink ;D

His brother, doing what he does best: camwhore! (maybe that's where my nieces got it from)

Actually, this is a candid shot and to give him credit, he does look quite good la. He'll probably blackmail me with that hideous photo he took of me if I said otherwise anyway.

Ikadakimasu!

Eeeeeh...? Might'e scared Janice in the back. -.-"

Sleepy faces, zzz....

See what I mean?

Manning the 'bar' (styrofoam carton full of alcoholic drinks)

Me with Ah Foo

Half gone

My grandparents eating heartily!

Super cute super poser

My family is a family of posers, seriously

My nephew, Richard and his cousin Jie Xin (I don't know her english name so this is the han yu ping yin) are being superheroes!

The two guys holding them are brothers and my cousins.

Getting ready for the yee sang. Isn't my grandma's smile sweet?

My dad's side was invited too, minus the lala-looking guy at the far right. *hides*

Stephanie, the one in the red dress, is only 12 this year and already very pretty.

Weee~! I was on the left side of my niece (who's on top of her dad's shoulders) and was so afraid she'd poke the chopstick into my eye!

Before

After

I got to put in the candles! :D

The chinese words are actually written by my cousin, Kean coz the girl at Secret Recipe couldn't write in chinese. I drew the lopsided heart!

The daughters and daughter-in-law

Cucu cicik (almost) semua

Cake cutting!

Rest time back in the hotel

And Wii time too!

My nieces and their mummy!

Breakfast at Coffee Bean since we went to Starbucks the other night (or morning since it was 1am).

Between the hotel and Gurney Plaza is this enclosed area, with cafes and restaurants lining both sides. Since it's open-air, sitting there and chilling in the sea breeze is wonderful.

The rest of the days was spent chilling out, shopping, visiting, swimming, Wii-ing and playing the new version of Cluedo: Discover the Secrets.



Ms. Kassandra Scarlet (the one on the box cover) rocks! xD She got the best power too!

It was so relaxing and fun to be around my family, I've been moping around now that it's over and we've returned to the suburbs of KU. Back to the world of textbooks and homework.

I wish everyone a fun and happy new year! You don't need to be prosperous to be happy ok!

CNY,

~*JJ*~

P.S.:

HAPPY AWESOME 18TH BIRTHDAY TO KIT!

All I can say is that I'm proud that you are my oldest friend (old meaning I know him since I was born la). =)