I Do It My Way

Today is the 4th of July! (the day I typed this, not the day I started this post)

Independence day! For USA.

So screw that. More importantly, it's Megan and Chuan koko's birthday.

So lotsa new photos now, must faster post the old ones. Then only can get the birthday ones up.

Dinner at TGIF with cousins and visiting cousins some weeks ago.

Yeah, my camera battery ran out so it's back to crappy phone pics. =.=

Nacho awesomeness! :D

Tea! Never ordered before so never seen the cute lil teapot before.

But uncle decided to order this time. :P

Clam chowder is my favourite soup now. Topping cream of mushroom but excluding sharkfin because sharkfin is a totally different league.

Lamb thingy.

Sis punya bacon burger is so awesome!!!!! Bacon love!

Lamb again. And look at all those asparagus.

Fish dish.

Sizzling something.

Chicken fajitas! Yes, I know I need some serious variation.

Random pretty hearts and stickers the nieces gave me as a pre-birthday present lol.

They gots to see Buzz and Woody!! O:

BBQ at cousin's place~!

The yummies ready to be barbequed.

The yummies already barbequed.

Megan!

Janice!

Even sushi! So many things omg see also feel like my waistline expand already.

OMG CRABS.

And sausages! Nothing big, EXCEPT THESE ARE CHEESE SQUIRTING SAUSAGES. :D

Giant kiap kiap tongs.

I love candid shots. And people pretending to be candid while I take them anyway. :P

Photobombed by sausage wts.

Awesome but not the usual spork!

Oh, the cholesterol.

Princess costume!

Shared a lamb slice with my cousin. This would be our creative way of cooking the middle parts.

Ok, like thousand and one more pics to blog since I haven't been able to use my darling laptop Desiree for like a week. Because of lame cousin la. =.=

Rawr!

P.S.: It's my life. Stop stressing thank you very much.

Drama Umbrella

So I'm nineteen now.

Meaning it's the last teen year for me. Do I feel sad?

At first I was because it meant moving on the a whole new chapter of my life. The 'Teen' label makes it so easy to get away with some things. Livin' la vida, carpe diem and all that.

Then when you hit twenty, it's all different. You wouldn't be able do certain things anymore without getting weird looks and being judged by others. You couldn't be so carefree about things now because people start relying on you. You are not taken care of any longer, you take care of someone now.

Bigger burdens you never expected, huger life choices to make, more drastic consequences to it.

Because you would be twenty-something. And not a teenager.

And I'd feel OLD. Gosh, it's like, "How old are you?"

"Eighteen!"

"Really?"

"No, actually I'm TWENTY-TWO."

Waliao, just thinking about it makes me feel like I popped a beard or something.

All in all, I was abit tentative about approaching the nineteen milestone. Not like I had a choice with that actually.

But nowadays, it's all turned around. I feel sick of it. Because of one stupid reason.

I sometimes feel like I can't wait to get out of my teenage years purely because of how complicated it is.

I do realize that being over twenty is not paradise or anything. But see, when we were young, innocent and completely naive of the world, we never had to deal with this thing called Drama.

I know, it's that thing with the crying and depression and stress and anxiety and spite and pettiness and apathy and crying and anger and binging and starving and insomnia and crying and curling up into tiny balls and raging and screaming and suicidal thoughts and more crying and goodness knows what else.

All gets kicked under the Drama umbrella. (Wow, that rhymes. It shall be the title then.)

We only start to feel it when we grow into teens. For us lucky ones anyway, I'm sorry to those who had to deal with it earlier in life.

And since it's like the first time we face these issues, we don't know what to do with ourselves sometimes. We lose ourselves in the intense emotions that usually come with drama.

The last few years of my life, I've had to deal with teenage dramas time and again. Every single year, there has to be at least once when I feel like living is too much of a challenge. Every. Single. Year.

I've been a spectator, a participant, even an instigator to it though not intentionally.

And I hate it. I hate drama. It is always SO DAMN TIRING. I hate how it makes me feel and act. I hate making people worry. I hate the nosey ones that try to turn it into juicy gossip. I hate not being able to live properly just because of something that will seem so trivial or easy to solve in the latter years.

But at the moment it's would be the most important thing.

And then that thing happens where you grow up. And you can deal with problems with this weapon called experience under your belt. It doesn't always help but hey, you know you've pulled through times like that, you can and will do it again.

You know.

And you learn to fake that smile better now though I don't know if that's a good thing.

You can do it. You solve it. Or you let go. Or you fight on. Or you stand up. Or you hold on.

You deal.

Current ringtone: When It All Falls Apart - The Veronicas

Nineteen Now

The birthday post.

Not really in the mood. Been wanting to post emo stuff but everytime I see this in the draft, I stop myself and try not to butcher this blog up again.

Now with it out if the way, you could probably skip the next few entries.


Random awesome fried mantou picture that is unrelated because I dunno where else to put it.

Went to meet up with Anna and the others before she flew off. Which she has already done. D:

Makan di Charms.

The others had their famous(?) pinapple fried rice.

But as I'm not partial to pineapples and I saw lamb... Screw the budget.

Er, fried onion thing. I think. They ordered but it was nice.

Dessert! Loh and Tang Yuen!

They got me strawberry because they thought it suited me and they were right. I loves.

OMGWTFSUPERCOOLWHITEPOLAROID.

And since it was like days before my birthday, they surprised me with cake!

That's why it's included in the post. Haha.

So sweet yes? :)

Favourite SR cake ;)

Ash looking in disgust. We were all too full to attack the cakes right away actually.

And then what they do to kill time?

Tekken of course. One last time for Anna. :)

Oh em gee, my cake is on fire!

And around this point my camera battery died. =.=

So what should have been an awesome shot, turned out okay only. :P

We all wondered why he suddenly agreed to let his face kena smooshed, until he wiped some onto mine. -.-

I smelt butter all the way home. Wth.

Went to Ben's place to discuss the stall thingy (which apparently is ours and not the kiddies and I will get eaten by Crys lololol).

Sho shweet.

And guai.

Not like JB, which incidentally was very quiet last night.

Long story short, he's better even though I did imagine the worst case scenario and started crying in the car when I got home and saw him.

Megan drawing this awesome pic with my phone app.

Is awesome because the pointer thingy is like few mm off from where you actually touch.

Which explains why it took me so long to do this. The virtual paper was originally pink. -__-"

This is also included because I spent a great day with them and later went to family birthday dinner straight.

At Bubba Gump.

Booked a room since there were too many of us.

Lazy label food. Mostly consists of shrimp anyways.

This is not food. This is Megan (not the same Megan lol) consuming food.

That one definitely ain't shrimp.

Cousin damn funny, pose his camera with his drink.

Which he didn't know is alcoholic. He claimed the alcohol was the pineapple taste lol.

Giant meat...

...has giant bone.

My cousin was about to take the fry out of his mouth, but I was like 'WAIT. HOLD IT THERE FIRST.'

Then take photo. :D

Has more pics of myself in this post because I get to be self-centered once in a while. :P

Leftover mixed stuff.

I know I look super awkward here but someone would tell you how long it took to button that stupid top up.

I mean look how tiny and numerous the buttons are! D:

And they are the hook hook type summore, I forgot what that is called. *KH fail*

So YES, must take photo.

Ran to get the cake from inside Pyramid. :)

Then went back, and at 12 sharp only would I relent to cut cake because I'm anal like that.

Prezzies! :D

Speaking of which, my first present given to me was stolen. Like seriously, what kinda of heartless bastard steals birthday presents?!

Special candles hee hee.

He always has lighter. -.-

Thanks sis for the next two dozen or so pictures.

I make wish very long wan k. :P

Omg, mei mei's face so precious here!

Traditional family photo. :)

Sparkling juice that even the nieces can drink.

Dangerous lol.

From sis first. :)

Home made leh.

Pretty bracelet with love and peace sign!

Ignore spastic face tqvm.

Megan and Janice's one that she help open lol.

Is a Jessie notebook!

I love Jessie and Toy Story 3 was just around the corner then. :D

Cousin Gaik's.

Yes I cropped out spastic face this time so look at pretty bow enough.

Pretty dainty Tiffany necklace!

Cousin Sien's.

LOVE Body Shop stuff. Green apple summore. :D

Bear bear from cousin Peng Soon. Haven't named it yet though. =]

From Chuan koko and Lee Yan jie jie.

Guess I know which bag I'm gonna use for Uni now. :D

Mum's!

Actually sudah tau la haha. Is awesome. :)

And finally dad's. :)

Friends' ones are all over the place so I lazy post lol.

One of the best (not that I don't appreciate and love the others any less) was a card from one of my oldest friend who took the trouble to send it all the way from Australia.

I cried reading it omg. I miss you! T__T

In the process of transferring my stuff, I realize I have alot of crap in my purse. Hitsugaya!!!

Brunch on the actual day with Ash and Sam. No Anna because she had to pack. :(

Afternoon with sis watching Nanny McPhee. Which was good for a sequel, expect the pig part was totally overdone.

Dinner is Japanese again. But I like, so yay!

Sis punya ramen.

I always love the sashimi roses at Kinsahi.

But it was so weird that I wasn't in a sashimi mood that night. I know right, is there even such thing as not being in a sashimi mood for me?

Maybe the bad memories were haunting me or something. See, I got food poisoning once when I went there.

I mean, Kinsahi didn't give me food poisoning. I already had it when I got there and was feeling just plain crappy.

So yeah.

Mine!

Lol, I was telling my parents how I just ordered that for brunch.

Tuesday, after a (actually not that but I wanna make him feel guilty) session at the gym which Jon dragged me to, went to watch movie.

Banana shake! Got Jon's stupid ring wtf try again.

WTF SOON. -___-

Fries sucked omg. It's the one in Lala Avenue.

Went to watch Killers after that. I keep forgetting how lame it is to watch this kind of shows with 3 guys and no girls.

They just go 'SOHAI LA'. T___T

But watch it, seriously. Not just for the funny, but for Ashton Kutcher's abs OMG *dies*.

Met up with Jo and Kris after that and ate at Wendy's while catching up.

Wasn't too hungry so ate this only.

Yay end.

Current ringtone: Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus (wtf)