Rubik and His Cube

Behold. The Rubik’s Cube.

And I finally solved it!

*does the in-your-face jig to those who still can’t* (even though they don’t really care)

Okay, I know lotsa people can do it too. Just let me have my moment of imaginary glory.

And yeah, it’s the new craze in the library and probably our school too.

I'd love to have these earrings! So cute!

Thanks to Beh who taught me the early steps and Foo with his ‘kind’ and ‘patient’ (*gags on the word ‘patient’*) tutelage, I finally managed to solved the damn thing and get on with my life.

@.@

Yer, why so impatient? Bully me? T.T (actually he helped a lot xD )

Anyway, if I didn’t, it’d be on my mind hiding in a little corner and poking my brain with a little stick saying, “You haven’t solved it yet~! You idiot...”.

I solved it all by myself in my mum’s car on the way home from Lit tuition when Mei Shien’s cube and I was so excited because I had been doing the last step wrong all the time and it was so frustrating so when I finally got it right, I was so gosh-darn happy.

(nice long run-on sentence xD)

But my mum didn’t care. Instead of congratulating me, or even pretending to be happy for me, she scolded me for wasting time on the stupid thing instead of studying. A trial-and-error toy, she called it.

That made me mad. I was like, “No, there are formulas and some logic to it.”

But she wouldn’t accept it and told me to put it aside to study. -.-

Funny, being a math lecturer, I thought she’d appreciate it more as those maths-y and science-y nerds (no offence since I did it too. Me is nerd =P) tend to do that.

Apparently, I thought wrong.

Oh well, I know when I’m wasting breath. My dad doesn’t appreciate it too anyway.

So, Imma gonna try it again and when I get used to it and memorize the formulas, I get to the understanding part. Yay-ness! =D

On another topic, I love my nail file.

They ain’t a girl’s best friend but they come pretty darn close.

More hand art Pei Pei drew.

looks like Wanted. xD

Giddy,

~*JJ*~

Projects

I would throttle my stupid add maths project if it had a neck.

But since it doesn't, I have to settle for just cursing at it and glaring at my teacher every chance I get.

But since projects don't have ears either and my teacher doesn't even notice, it's all moot.

Argh, stayed up nearly all night last night procrastinating. Now, I have bags under my eyes that make me look like Po from Kung Fu Panda (which I still haven't watched!) and I was sleepy the whole day today.

Tonight will be another repetition I guess, even though I've completed most of it. I'm left with analyzing my cacated graphs and the calculations.

Then some finishing touches like adding in the titles and page numbers and I'm done. Whatever.

Like David said, No idea do for what also.

It's just a stupid sijil that no one cares about.

Yeah, I get it we'll have a lot of assignments and projects and presentations we have to do in future and preparing ourselves is fine and all but why the *beep* shouldn't we be allowed to use a *beep*ing computer?

Like students will really stop copying each others' projects just because it's handwritten.

They coined it. PMS (Project Madness Syndrome) alright.

Last thing, I am really shocked. I had placed much hope in Mr Guna's recovery.

But fate is never predictable, I guess.

I will pray for them and help them if possible.

Condolences,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Still waiting for shirt... -.-

Both to Blame

Who do you think you are?

You think everything you do is right. You never accept any blame whatsoever and even if you say you do, you don't mean it. It's just to make others pity you.

You love your little game, don't you?

You just sit on your damn throne and expect everyone to follow your every dictation, attend to your every whim, using your status as a threat to lord over me.

You twist people around your little finger. You poison people's minds.

You think you are always right; you never do anything wrong. Everything you do is justified by your twisted standards. You think you're a fucking saint. A martyr.

You are just that blind.

The others. The others are always to blame. But not you, never you.

I'm the bad one, only me.

All you do is right, and you are never selfish, never controlling, never self-pitying, never untrusting, never mean, never narrow-minded, never unjust, never untruthful, never fussy, never petty.

You're just right. Always.

Well, screw it.

I accepted my faults. Why can't you?

I've tried to change. Why won't you?

What makes you so great, so wonderful that you would be exempted from all blame?

Our relationship is this tattered because of the both of us. Not just me, not just you, but both.

We both have shed tears. We both have screamed ourselves hoarse. We both have cursed each other silently. We both have done stupid things. We both have hated each other with a vehemence rivaling that of Hades' for Zeus.

But still, I love you.

Your blood flows in my veins and my heart beats to yours. You and I are in this together no matter what.

That's why I really want this to work out. I want us to go back to those times where we can laugh and play and joke. And you were my idol. So clever a math genius, so attentive a nurse, so caring a woman, so wonderful a mother.

Before things started to go bad. Really bad.

Now, my family and I have a barrier between us. But the thickest barrier would have to be with you.

Remember the year when it all started?

It was my UPSR year. Things cooled down and heated up during my PMR year. And now, this year.

Notice the pattern? Of course you do.

Education has always been top priority for you two, hasn't it? You stinging words say it all.

Never mind that I have no friends, never mind that I need to keep fit, never mind that I want to live my life, never mind that I need my freedom.

Everything boils down to my studies. My results. The pressuring, the arguments, the fighting.

And other things got pulled in too. Sibling favouritism, nitpicking, even speech. Everything.

Now it's so far gone, it's safe to say it will never go back the way it used to be.

But I still have hope. Even if it will not return to the past, I want to create a different future than what is painted before us now.

I will try to be more patient and understanding. I know you went through so much for us but you don't have to rub it in my face.

I want to improve our relationship and strengthen the bond between us again. I hope and pray that we can.

And then there will be light again.

=)

Faith,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Kristin, tell you some other time, k? And sorry I was emo-ing at you, Jon.

Two Birthdays and A Duty

Yesterday was Megan and Chuan's birthday.

They are my niece and cousin respectively.

It was a very happy night with lots of food and so many presents for Megan.

She loves ripping them open. Then she takes one look at what's inside, throws it aside to the person nearest to her and starts with another gift-wrapped box.

She got Barney bolster and pottery and bag, clothes, a Play-Doh set, a scooter, art board, food etc.

I want to be her age with such an indulging family.

Chuan will get a belated prezzie, a swiss army knife. But don't tell him (yes, I know you don't know him).

The 4th of July is also Independence Day for the USA but we don't live there so bugger it.

Jo; I knew she couldn't resist the chocolate. Haha, I was right!

Went for St John Flag Day duty today. Came back completely pooped out.

I look half dead. And stupid. No headgear. Will get a zit attack after this.

So so tired. And it didn't help that I didn't get a good night's sleep last night.

I kept waking up at random hours of the night and, being to lazy to reach out for my handphone, I kept straining my eyes to see if it was already dawn through my 99% opaque 1% translucent curtains.

Woke up around 3 times and when I woke again at 7, I couldn't go back to sleep so I picked up a magazine and flicked through it.

Got to Foo's house around 9.30 and Yih Foo (different Foo's) arrived around 10.30. Then went for a three hour duty at Taipan.

It was about an average duty's money for me but Foo got 5 ten dollar bills! KNS! I only got 3. T.T

I think we neglected Yih Foo a bit. Feel guilty now. D=

Saw some USJ 13 members who were on duty as well. Foo was suspiscious, and with a good reason. Hmm...

I realised I can't hit an animal.

I tried punishing my naughty Shaggy today by caning him but after one stroke I dropped down to hugged him and felt guilty enough to take ten of the same strokes for him.

Don't harm animals. Period.

Anyway, I have two tuitions today and I really need to get my Add Maths project done. Or start on it anyway.

I didn't know it was due on Wednesday! I thought it was Friday so I had more time to scrinch from other people!

Gah...

Better get started soon.

Feet aching,

~*JJ*~

Listless

I don't know why but I have been really listless these days.

I feel tired most of the time and am bothered by some trivial things in my life. I need to let them go, seriously. But I can't for certain things.

Example of one of the things I can't just blow off would be the looming deadline of my Add Maths project which I haven't even started yet.

And the fact that I may be bringing my Sejarah book around the house but I haven't gone past the first page.

I really need a scholarship but I just can't seem to get off my fat ass and start studying for trials. Ugh...

I need a push but the only push I get is at the last minute when I procrastinate and do some serious cramming at 4 a.m. the night before with a litre of coffee next to me.

I must get into the habit of studying consistently! I've already (kind of) mastered sleeping early. By early, I mean 12 midnight, but it's a good start and way better than before.

I knew I had to take drastic measures to my lifestyle after going to see the doctor four effing times this year.

And not to mention drinking ko teh (bitter tea) twice already. When they say bitter, it really means bitter! >.<

I hate going to the doctor's; its a waste of money. Those blood suckers! They just rob everyone of their hard earned cash with expensive consultation and overcharged medicine.

I always avoid going to the doctors of possible and four times just doesn't cut it for me. So, it's early to bed, early to rise.

God, that was cheesy.

I am and ignoramus.

Ish, that Woei Yaw! Selfish ass! Can't he just shut up?! I want my collecting tin back! T.T

One more thing. A prayer for Encik Guna who is in a coma and in critical condition at the moment. May he recover with full health.

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Thanksies. =)

Stupid local serives.

Again, I think I forgot to add something. Will update if I remember. xD

My cousin's family is here. Got to go!

Worn out,

~*JJ*~

P.S. : Wow, Mr Swee Aun commented on the last post. Cool... Thanks. Did he google SBJA car wash or something? Lol.