Us Seafield Librarians' Daily Routine

A lot of friends have been asking me what I find so interesting in the library which compels me to make it my 'second home' or even first, as they term it.

And what do we actually get up to there?

Hehe, secret lah. Can't tell or you'll never look at us the same way again.

xDDD

No, not that stuff. I was just messing with you. Get your head outta the gutter for a sec.

Actually, it's nothing interesting. Just a bunch of us lazy bums who didn't finish our work will be frantically trying to find someone else's book to copy from or some of us with last minute homework that we only remembered that day.


And those that just so happen to have completed their work, will sit there on their asses enjoying themselves and laugh cruelly at those who haven't.


I think I was on that side only once. That's pathetic.

Now, there's a new obsession going on. Last time was Neopets, now it's 02jam. Quite a few of us are hooked.

No piccies of course, or it could be used to blackmail me. Duh. I know I would do it.

Just kidding!

>.>


<.<

Sort of.

I can't get much homework squeezed in nowadays since I'm one of those addicts .

Anyway, on the day these pix were taken, there was also that Pesta Buku thingy.



So Kristin brought her camera along and after school we camwhored a bit.

Bai yeng-ing.

Apparently, our butts were too sexy to miss out. I'm not the shortest! Yay! Sorry Po Yee. T_T

That 'pointing in a random direction and being fascinated by absolutely nothing' idea never really gets old.

'We're ex-friends now.'

I really don't know what to say about these two pics so lets just pretend they were never there.

Jin Yee is pretending to be camera-shy.

Inside of the Bilik Penyelaras. Candid shoot. Yes, despite popular belief, some of us actually do work in there.

GASP.

Yes, we're still amatures. Well, not really. We just didn't have enough time or there'd be a dozen more.

Hence the library camp camwhoring session.

Oh, and to answer your question as to why I'm always there during free time, it's because of the really great company of friends that are usually there too, like Jo, Kristin, Foo, Chun Kit, Melissa, Doon, Qiu Hui, Simon, Pei Qi, Po Yee, Wei Zhi, Jun Kang, Wilsern, Beh and some other folks that aren't so important.

*gets stoned*

I heart them all.

<333,

~*JJ*~

Some Stuff

Yeah, I just want to share some things:

I'm very glad that Foo finally 'found FOO YUN JIAN' again. Cheers to that! And I forgave him. xD Happy times...

I will now be giving out random hugs. Too bad if you are a victim.

Midterms are killing me. Literally and virtually both.

I spoke to Jonathan, a guy from West Wood, on Messenger after 2 whole years of no contact. And it was by accident.

I've become quite the 02jam addict. A little late, I know, but who cares?

I love my true friends!

Working on a fanfic; As Fate Dictates.

Looking for a cowboy hat. Yep, you heard me.

Trying to lose weight. Not like it's anything new but I am doing it with more vigour now.

I realised I need to go down 2.5 kg to get to my ideal BMI. Not to be skinny, but to be in shape.

I hope Ee Ann and her sisters are fine without Furry in their lives.

Sejarah sucks and just might turn me into a full fledge racist. Looks like the government's idea backfired, huh?

Being pressured by parents sucks too.

Speaking of things that suck, Moral does as well.

But Ferrero Rocher rules. And so does every other chocolate and candy. Except minty stuff. Mint only belongs in breath mints or toothpaste.

And I just ate two Ferrero Rochers so be jealous. So much for vigour.

My new favourite word is an old favourite word: epiphany. I just liked it back again. It's replacing sporadic.

Failing to study,

~*JJ*~

Rough Times

Things have been rough lately. Or maybe I'm just not strong enough.

Life has taken a toll on me spiritually and emotionally. Things have been happening one after another and I don’t know where to turn to for comfort.

I know I shouldn’t be complaining since there are those that are much worse of than me but like the frog in the well who only saw a circle of the great sky, these problems are really big to me as I never really tasted worse before.

Things like what happened at the camp was finally over, or so I thought. Then new problems cropped up and things got complicated again.

Afterwards, there were other things like just not clicking with a friend of mine.

Then it was over and I was fine. Almost.

Next, my dad and I had a big row. He thinks I should spend more family time and stuff. He thinks I was bathing to avoid them.

I was in a fucking towel and dripping wet when I answered the bathroom door. And he just hollers into my face:

“DO NOT USE BATHING AS AN EXCUSE TO COME DOWN LATE!!!”

And loads of other stuff. Then, mum knows that I'm deathly afraid of my dad and uses the opportunity to pick on me.

Hell, I never even asked them to wait. I already told him that I was bathing and to go ahead and eat first.

I feel like the less time I spend with my family the better but they insist that their way is right and force the family quality time on me. Not like its fun; they like to ostracize me during those times.

I think their actually purpose to get me to join them is to nitpick me.

So paradoxical.

The more they try to rein me in, the more I want to break free.

And then, there was the broken promise thing.

And now, Furry’s death.

Finally, MIDTERM EXAMS.

I can’t even go to my family for advice because I know what they will say.

“Ignore it all and just focus on your studies.”

“You don’t bother about it, it’s their problem. You should just keep studying. Your exams are this year.”

“Don’t get involved in this and just concentrate on you studies. Know your priority.”

Hey, friends, ko-ku, and my own feelings are my priorities too.

And if my problem is studies related, they say, “Study harder. You slack off too much.”

Now I don’t even try. Especially when one of the problems is them.

I want to apologize to those I might have unknowingly taken my frustration and emo-ness out on.

Thanks for putting up with a bitch friend like me.

I need to stop bitching,

~*JJ*~

Broken Promises, A Thing I Hate

One of the things I really hate is broken promises.

Trust.

I like that I can trust people and when one of your closest friends break that faith, things just go downhill.

Yesterday, when I was lamenting about the fact that I’d be alone again on campfire nite, because honestly, going with Ed and Jo is awkward since I want to leave them alone for some ‘couple’ time but Joanne will feel guilty and try to include me and I know it’s half-hearted.

So if I have some other friend to go with, she’d be at ease. My other group of friends can’t be relied for social outings so I didn’t ask them.

Then Foo told me he’d accompany me. I knew that he might waver so I made me promise me.

Like, “Promise ah? Sure? Don’t run of to your pet sisters again and ffk me.”

And he said, “Yeah lah. I won’t do that 1.”

Maybe I insisted he promise me so much was because I already knew that I couldn’t trust him too much on this. But still I chose to believe him.

Then today, he comes and tells me that he hope I won’t be mad if he’s too preoccupied that night with another friend he’s going with.

“Eh Jia Ying, don’t angry if I don’t choi you that night because I with Po Yee.”

WTF...

I don’t blame his friend. The fact that I might not have a friend to go with me isn’t such a big issue, especially after I found out that Kristin and Pei Qi might be going as well.

It was the fact that he broke the promise that pissed me of so bad. And he didn’t even think he was in the wrong at first.

Heck, I’ve definitely broken a few promises in the whole seventeen years of my life.

But he had a choice and he was very well aware of what he was doing. It wasn’t an accident, it wasn’t just a little white lie or a small slip up.

It was a complete betrayal of trust.

Sure, he said he was joking afterwards, and that he was still going to pei me as well, but the very fact that he even uttered that sentence meant that he actually thought about it and anticipated it.

Yet, he still just broke the promise. Consciously, knowingly and deliberately, he broke it.

Sorry no cure, and even now, I suspect the sincerity in his apology. How am I supposed to know if he’s joking about that too? After all, he loves to joke.

Broken promises just plain suck.

Hurt,

~*JJ*~

Furry, A Wonderful Doggy

Furry, Ee Ann, Ee Chin and Ee Wei’s dog died today.

She died around noon and was suffering till the last breath. Poor dog had been sick for weeks or even months and she was quite old for a dog.

I really liked the black gentle dog. Well, she’s gentle compared to her two canine housemates, Benji and Scampy.

And yes, this is the same Benji I talked about some posts back. I really hope he doesn’t go the same way, or I’d really break down. Life itself has not really been wonderful lately.

Ee Ann was with her till the last second, holding her and crying. She was so scared and helpless as she watched Furry suffer, gasping for breath and limp as if she were already dead.

I didn’t know what to say and was totally ignorant when Ee Ann came into the library today (the feat of her coming back to the library itself is amazing) and urgently searching for her sister, Ee Chin.

Then she took me outside and told me what had happened. I was honestly shocked and too stunned to say anything except hug her. She was already crying by then. I allowed Ee Chin to go home early today to bury Furry.



Furry was a wonderful dog. I hope she’ll find peace and be well and happy always.

To Furry,

~*JJ*~

Just Something on My Mind

Speaking about my skin being susceptible, I think my mind is as well.

Well, not my mind as much as my emotions. I don't know why, but I've yet to cry at funerals.

Yet when I see people cry, I start to tear up as well. Watching people or animals suffering or soppy, mushy books and movies make me that way. Romantic comedies or movies that guys would rather jump of the Titanic itself than watch the movie.

You should see me blubber then.

Like the book, If you Could See Me Now by C. Ahern. IT'S A MUST READ. It was so bittersweet that I wanted to brawling my heart out. Except that we (librarians) were on a bus to Penang and everyone else was asleep.

I think a lot of us are more susceptible than we think we are. Peer pressure, mass media, celebrities, trends and other blahs.

Oh well.

Also, I've just though of a few words I really like. As in, I like the way the words sound. The meanings and definitions are irrelevant here.

These are a few words/ phrases I think is 'bombastic' as Jonathan Teng Yiao would say.

- Sporadic
- Prancing
- Carboxylic
- Poptarts (I have a habit of sporadically spouting that word out)
- Benji!
- Epiphany
- Fuzzball
- Languid
- Ain't
- Wooji wooji wooji! (when I see something awesomely cute and fuzzy, like baby rabbits)
- Talk to the hand
- Shake your pom pom (you should hear Kristin say it, then you'll know why I love it)
- I know you are but what am I? (never used it before though)
- Takes one to know one

That's all I can think about at the moment. Will add to the list when I recall some more.

By the way, I'm also doing a post for all the piccies from the librarian camp but now, I feel very lazy to finish it since it takes ages to upload stuff on my computer. Remember, Fred Flinstone's is better than mine.

I know, I know, potong steam. But what to do? Wanna practise 02jam on my computer also cannot. Ish...

Crap, my sunburnt area is itching in a painful sort of way. Can I kill something now?

In a pissy mood at the moment,

~*JJ*~

Sunburnt

SMK Seafield Sports Day today.

And I was in St. John perbarisan AND on duty as well. Double shift.

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That was a random break of control where I banged on my keyboard in a fit of frustration. You may ignore.

So, duty-ing on an empty stomach. Plus, we didn't even get first place in perbarisan. Not like I thought we deserved it. I felt that we were Top 3 material, along with Scouts and Band. But honestly, Puteri Islam?!

If it were Scouts or Band or even Kadet Polis, I still would understand. In fact, I anticipated the one of the first two to get johan. But seriously lah, Puteri Islam. WTH?!

Or maybe I'm just prejudiced against pink stuff with *coughfuglycough* butterflies on their heads.

Summore right, I spent the whole day lucky enough to be out of the sun only to have my efforts washed down the drain at the last hour.

First shift in the open but sun wasn't strong yet. Second shift was in a shady area.

So I thought I was safe. Mana tau, when they were announcing the results for perbarisan, we were made to stand in the bleeding hot sun for like half and hour!

Okay, maybe not half hour. Exaggeration there. But only slightly.

This year (my last year too!) was kind of boring. I only did a few cramps and a cut. Nothing major.

I was even evil enough to hope that some one would slip on a bottle left in the middle of the track for the lack of better things to do than just stand around talking about... what did we talk about Wai Yi? Oh, yeah.

I polluted the innocent little minds of the form 3's and 2's when I mentioned the rumor about Zhenbon's six pack. And then some.

They were like, shocked outta their pure, little innocent form 3 minds! "Jia Yiiing! *giggles*"

Mission as president of the Popcorn Club (inside joke, hardy har har) accomplished. Hehe.

Not really shocked lah. But surprised. Lol, now no one will ever hired me as an entertainer again. Because that was the best I could think of to do when bored. Except critizing the songs, food and cheerleaders.

Not Vulcanz lah, the little ones. Anton Someone who shall not be named said that most of them were doing slutty moves. I couldn't see mucn but from the glances I caught, he's right.

WHAT LAH?! Has the standard fallen that low?! In my time (dang, I'm starting ro sound like those old people who always go 'Why sonnie, in my years, we did blah blah blah'), we were hardly allowed to even wear tight track bottoms and almost got into trouble for using glitter.

Speaking of evil people. Well, we weren't really speaking of evil people, but we are now!

So anway, some time during Shift 1, evil Melissa and evil Kok Fei were strolling about Checkpoint 1.

And ZEE OH EM GEE! They had a whole box of sushi in their hands! My craving for jap food nearly went over the edge then.

Especially since Melissa didn't know we weren't allowed to eat on duty and offered to feed me one! Right in front of my mouth leh!

But I resisted. *grins* Only becuase Tuan Sim was staring at us.

Then Kok Fei smirked and slowly, deliciously, temptingly ate a sushi right in front of us making yummy close to pornographic noises.

I just wanted to grab the rest of the sushi and cabut off.

See what I mean about evil?!

Nothing much else happened today. Except that we didn't get to food promised. Yerrr...

Oh yeah, one more tres important thing:

I GOT A FREAKING GODDAMN PISSING-ME-OFF, SCREWING-ME-UP, F-ED UP, *beep*SUCKING, BLOODY FUCKING SUNBURN.

#@!&*$#!

I would have put in more swear words but I'm trying to cut down, and besides, the words I thought of were too horrible to type here. Well, not really. I was just lazy.

Okay, lets all pray that my parents never find out about the existence of this blog.

So anwyay, my effort to stay out of the sun in a fruitless attempt to maintain my normal skin colour and not convert to Lobster-ville was well, fruitless.

I thought it wasn't so bad at first. I saw my photos in Ann's camera but lived in denial for like fifteen minutes thinking 'it's just the lighting' that made me look like Preman's sister.

That's crap, because we were standing in the blazing sun for the camwhoring (but not really) session. So lighting wasn't a problem and I knew it.

Fifteen minutes because when I got into mum's car, she was like, 'Girl, you're very red, better put some cream before it gets worse'.

No point putting on cream anyway, I already know what will happen.

What else for today? Oh yeah, I think I might stop giving him the cold shoulder now that it's all over. He looked about to cry when we lost today. *rolls eyes*

But really, our AJKs did a great job today so I'm cool.

Except for the fact that my neck and chest has a dark V-shaped tone AND my face is red and resembles a reverse panda (though not as bad as last year coz I wasn't wearing glasses but contacts this year) which means dark everywhere except the eye area AND my arms can compete with fried prawns in a 'who's redder' contest.

My skin is that defenseless. A lil bit of sun and I'm a hybrid of a tomato now.

AND I will start peeling tomorrow. Yep, that's what happens to me.

So if you see bits of dead skin flaking of the end of my nose, don't say anything unless you want a new teeth arrangement before you go home.

Gotta get some cream on me,

~*JJ*~

Leo IU Night

SMK Seafield's Leo International Understanding Night 2008.

Yosh.

It wasn’t too shabby. It wasn’t as bad nor as good as I though it would be. Get it? Oh well.

The performances were so-so at first, no offence, but the later half (somewhere after the dinner) was much better.

I look weird in the photo. To add to all my imperfections, I'm also not photogenic. Again, I blame the karma.

To quote Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes: "Life is always more fun when you are not responsible for your actions."

Too bad karma is still my own fault.

Wei Zhi and us. Our 'pet bro', he says.

I went with Joanne and Edmond. It's a little weird to go out with them because I want to leave them alone since they don't get much 'couple' time but Jo always feels guilty to leave me alone. Haiz...

The BOD sketch was... unexpected. Jonathan actually looked good with boobs. Lmao.

Lego City was pretty cool. And the dances. I’ve always enjoyed breakdancing. Viewing only, not doing. I can’t do a six step to save my life.

Last Minute was awesome, and since they were our friends and were awesome, we just started hollering like retards.

And the ‘Three Hot Girls’ were three hot girls, Jing Yi, Li Zhi and Nazneen (I think) dancing like there’s no tomorrow. Heh, they even got an encore. But since they were the same moves, it was a bit sien already lah.

Lucky draw. ROFL. Our table didn’t even get any of the ‘lousy’ prizes. And then there was the Nike products. Those also didn’t get anything.

But then came the big prize: a 2-way MAS ticket to Bangkok.

So they were like, “1....7...”

What the hell! Our table was Table 17. YAY!!! Okay okay, next two numbers....

“....0....”

Oh oh! Mine starts with zero!

“.....1!!! 17-01!”

Drat, mine was 09. So close.

We were looking around to see who had won and XP suddenly rose from his seat. We started clapping like mad as he went up the stage to claim the prize.

XP was still smiling as he came back and sat down but when I asked him what he was going to do with it, he said he didn’t know. -.-

Actually I wasn’t all too enthusiastic to get it coz what the heck are you gonna do with ONE 2-way ticket to Bangkok? Which expires in May 2008?

So I’m a killjoy. Deal with it. I speak but the truth. We have exams lah. Fly to Bangkok buat apa? Our History also mostly about Malaysia, Malaysia-related crap and stuff like that.

Food was really good and I liked the vege dish. There was salmon, noodles, ice kacang, soup etc. Yum...

So I wore the classic black dress since you can’t ever go wrong with black. And heels four fucking inches high.

Uh, the next paragraph contains quite a few cuss words. Readers’ discretion advised.

Oh. My. Gosh... Right. Never ever EVER fucking dance in four-inch heels and then go shopping afterwards, which is exactly what a goddamn idiot like me did. Dammit! It fucking kills your feet. Seriously. And my feet got squashed god knows how many times on the dance floor. I mean, holy shit! My feet’s bruises have bruises!

Mother-effin’ heels.

I really wanted to just sit down at Coffee Bean and get a chocolate ice blended with yummy, luscious whip cream on top but first of all, I was on a mission to find a prezzie for Ann.

Her birthday is May 2 by the way. So anyway, I got something for her (sorry, I couldn’t find a soft toy for you! DD: but I got something else).

Then I continued my long search for CBTL but although I ventured far and wide I still couldn’t find it and finally settled for Starbucks.

Not bad lah, but so big cup. Fattening wei.

Jo and Ed already went of to goodness-knows-where. I went back around 10.15 p.m..

Reached home and straightaway washed up and got into my comfy PJs and here I am now. Typing and wanting to sleep.

To round it off, Anton, Debbie, Justin and the rest I can’t seem to remember now did a really great job and I enjoyed tonight. Dunno if it was worth 50 bucks but if it wasn’t, it was reeeaaal close.

School tomorrow. But I so no mood now. Argh! Exams coming, what am I saying?!

Sigh,

~*JJ*~

P.S.: More photos soon and I'm only halfway through my Library Camp photo post. My comp is stone-age slow. Fred Flinstone's computer pwns my computer's ass.

More Piccies of Library Camp!

Man, another post today! I am on a roll! And it's a happy one too. At least I'm trying to make it happier than the last few.

But you guys are probably thinking 'Shut up lah, Jia Ying! Sick of you already!'

Well, guess what? Yup, TOO BAD!

I've got more piccies uploaded and it took forever. I actuslly started this post right after the last one (the Update Post) but got bored after the tenth photo or so. I continued the next day.

Okay, enough blabbing. Here they are!

These were chosen as the 'spies'.

Some shots of us and Pn Tan and the teachers.

Pn Tan can use the last one as her new calendar picture. xD



Group photo!

The SS photos I mentioned. We denied camwhoring. Well, not really, since there are worse.

Preparing for the performance.

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Uh, I'll add more to this post soon because my comp is having trouble uploading the camp photos at the moment.

In a bit,

~*JJ*~

Long Overdue Update Post

I finally got around doing my update post.

It was from last year (November to January) and it’s not even going to be long. Oh well, too bad.

*gets stoned*

So anyway, we had our holidays and I went to Egypt.

Got lots of cool stuff there like Egyptian coke, galabia (sp?) and some cool gold snake slippers!

No, they weren’t made of snake but they had a snake design on it. Too bad Shaggy came and bit the thin strap into half! I smacked his furry butt for that.


We did Sphinx, Temples, Pyramids, PIllars, Temples, Villages, Papyrus, Bazaars and Temples.

Honestly, it was excating at first but got sort of repetitive after a while. Temple after temple. Unless you imagine going back into time and seeing how they manually built these beaties. Then it’s cool.

And I got majorly sick halfway since I was too stubborn to wear a jacket to protect myself from the sun. It’s actually really strong but you can’t really feel it ‘cause of the cool wind. And then, I went and exposed myself to strong winds on the boat and the cruise deck.

So my body couldn’t take the huge changes of temperature and went loco. Because I confused it to much, it took revenge by not deciding whether it was hot or cold!

So I was feeling warm on the surface of my skin and I even felt warm there but deeper in I felt totally cold and couldn’t stop shivering, even with a big, thick blanket over me.

Because of that, I couldn’t go for the highlight of the trip and had to stay in the cruise ship while the others went to the Nubian village and rode camels and held lambs and alligators!

Baby ones, of course.

Ish, I can’t believe my stupid self! So bad karma! Chiet Chun took my spot instead and he told me everything I was missing. And showed me pictures too. Grrr...

After the trip was just staying at my aunt’s place or our house would be totally empty. And my cousin leads an eventful life, I can tell you. I watched three movies in a week. But holiday lah, so nothing special also.

And or course, my two nieces were so adorable! I love them to death! Megan and Janice!

And we started the new school year. Nothing new except SPM!

Dun dun dun!

But I don’t think I’m putting in enough h effort, being the procrastinator that I am. All I do I make the library my first home and lament each time a new month starts. I suck.

So we also got a maid and all which is cool because now I don't look at dirty dishes with a vengence anymore.You know, only my mum and I were pulling our weight around here; dad and Yann didn't do much. Made no difference to them whether there was a maid or not. Only that if no Indonesian one here, then got two Malaysian maids: Me and mum.

*fumes*

Erm, I can’t think of anything else to rant about.

Oh, except that I got pissed at my family again today and I have to keep reminding myself that even if they don’t appreciate my love for them, I still do anyway. I don’t know how long I can keep it up.

Wow, quite a long post after all.

Looking forward to IU, if I didn’t look like an overstuffed pig forced into a dress.

Stressed,

~*JJ*~

Disney Movies

I was surfing the channels (something my mum hates but she wasn’t around so shhh!) and found out that Benji the Hunted was on Disney Channel.

I don’t think I’ve yet to outgrow Disney but I’ve definitely watched much less than I used to. But the (old) Disney movies always got to me. And it still does.

The only reason I stayed on the channel was because I spotted that the star of the show was the cutest doggy ever!

Not better than Beckie or Shaggy or Bobby (all my dogs xD) but still, cute enough to get me to put down the remote.

It's called Benji the Hunted. It’s about a dog star, Benji, who was out with this guy fishing or something one day and suddenly the boat overturns. Benji is now in foreign woods, separated from the guy whom he loves and vice versa.

So he’s like lepak-ing around and suddenly BANG! A hunter shoots this cougar. He tries to wake the cougar before the hunter comes but to no avail.

So the cougar gets carried away and he finds some teeny weedle cougar cubs that are probably hers. Kawaii!!!

And now he’s become a mummy! So he takes them in (sort of) and he tries to get food for them.

Once, he tried to steal some what I think is pheasant from the evil hunter guy but he got caught while stealing the second one. He escapes and (what’s the opposite of befriend?) be-enemy’s a wolf.

Yay, more animals! There’s also an owl, badgers, beavers, raccoons, a fox and a big fuzzy bear! Eeeek! I wanna huggies them all!

Ehem, ignore that. Anyway, the ending is that another cougar mommy takes his cubs in and he says goodbye and a helicopter flies past so obviously he’s gonna be found.

End!

But I sort of almost cried when the guy that was in the boat with him landed in a helicopter and was shouting for him, calling him and Benji was like looking back and forth from the cubs he was protecting to the man and he knew he had to choose the cubs because they were so helpless and he didn’t go after the man and the man left sadly and Beji was sad too!

*SOBZ!!!*

The title was sort of inappropriate because there were a couple of helicopters flying pass occasionally to search for him but it was more of his time in the woods. And also there was no dialogue but the amusing background music made up from it, I guess.

AND THE CUTE ANIMALS! I WANTED TO GLOMP BENJI!

My friend got the name Benji for her own dog from that show. He’s the cutest there is! No one can beat him! Not even Beckie or Shaggy or Bobby!


HE IS THE CUTEST DOG IN THE MULTIVERSE. Period.

Multiverse, not universe. Note that.

Another Disney movie I like is Tru Confessions.

No, not Tru Calling.


It’s about this boy, Eddie (who happens to be Shia Lebouf, one of my favourite actors) who is mentally retarded so he acts and thinks like a child. And his sister, Trudy (Tru) who used to be close to him slowly drifts away from him and things like that.

But soon as she makes a movie and things in life take place she realizes about her relationship between Eddie and how special it is. The relationhsip is repaired and all is well again.

No, don’t expect some miraculous surgery that makes Eddie all well again. it’s more realistic than that.

I can’t give a good description but it’s really a touching movie. I cried a lot, I’ll admit. Especially the library scene. Yep, I get soppy over movies but not real life deaths. How weird is that.

Whatever, just watch it! And there are other nice movies like Fox and the Hound, Tarzan, Little Mermaid 2 (though I don’t like Melody), Aristocats, Bambi, Lady and the Tramp 2, all the Lion King movies, Hercules, Hunchback of Notre Dame, Mulan 1 and 2, Swan Princess, Brother Bear 1 and 2, Emperor’s New Groove and Sleeping Beauty.

And definitely Quest for Camelot and Anastasia.

So many!

Anyway, that’s all for this post.

Byez,

~*JJ*~

Being In Between

I hate being caught in between.

It sucks because I feel obligated to both sides. My teeth chatter and my hands freeze over when I talk to either side about it. I don’t know which side to take since I feel that each side has contributed something to the whole problem.

Many people were involved in this and the big blow-up was on the last day of camp. There were tears and confessions and hurting, lots of unpleasant stuff.

On a separate issue, another friend went through something maybe not as heavy and dramatic but emotionally-challenging all the same. And he’s also earned my respect for something else he did that night.

On the one hand, I amclose friends with the guy and I want to support him even though I felt that he was being to ‘guo fen’ about this.

On the other hand, I am also friends with the girl and close friends with the best friend of the girl. And there were other problems linking to this one and was touched upon and many things were put out into the open.

I don’t blame the people involved because they are our friends and we choose to care for them. I hope they don't blame themselves too. We just want them to be happy again.

I think some things were resolved today but not all. At any rate, my friends seem lighter and better and happier today. And in turn, I feel lighter too.

I may not have suffered as bad as the main people involved in this, but being an in-between still sucks.

But still, I feel more bonded with the others now and I hope they feel the same. I know one of them does.

We saw each other in a harsh new light and like I said, many things were brought to the surface and exposed. I learnt new things and found new understanding in some of my friends and because of that, I feel closer to them now.

That’s one of the purposes of the camp, right? To become closer to each other.

So I don’t know if my leadership skills improved in anyway or if I toughened up or anything (maybe I would have if that dumb leech would just bite me!) but I definitely feel that the relationships between my friends and I, have changed quite a lot.

One may not see it to be good at first but it is to me and on the whole, I think it was more than worth RM150 and the muscle pain.

Already half-asleep,

~*JJ*~

Library Camp

Sooo, I guess most know that there was a library camp from 4th to 6th of April ’08 at Fraser’s Hill.

Overall, it was a ton of fun, if you ignore a few happenings going on under the surface. But most people enjoyed it, so yay!

Erm, okay. So the first activity was Treasure Hunt. I think there was some foul play but I don’t have any evident, just words whispered into my ear. It was fun, but I forgot which team won. The results were announced at the last night of the trip.

Now comes the all important Team Flag and stuff. There was Forest (Beh KT), Tropheum (Po Yee), Mocha (Xingsan), Rising Star (Pei Qi), SS Ark (Wei Mund) and last but not least, Group 6 (Pravin).


I really though Po Yee’s group’s potatoes were nuggets! Can you blame me?!

And SS Ark's animals are cute! Especially the hamster. But I forgot what represents who already, sorry...

Don't know why I can't get all the photos up.

Next was Team Spy. That game created bad feelings amongst us and even made one of the accused, Po Yee, cry. It taught us something though but I’m too lazy to relate it. I don’t think that was who Kristin meant when she said she’d like to see some people crying from the game since Po Yee was one of her good friends.



But yeesh, to look forward to a game just to see people cry. Evil girl. xP

The stupid barbeque stuff like the stove and skewers were left in the bus which already took off when we realized what was missing. So no BBQ.

DDD:

Better make up for it come year end after SPM.

We took some group photos and SS photos.

Doesn't Foo look cute and innocent in the last one? Come to think of it, he always does in photos.

So deceiving...

So so so, next we had, er... did we have anything at night? Ah, I can’t remember so probably not important. Or maybe it was, but I’m just absent-minded. Nothing new there.

But it WAS the night we were supposed to do BBQ but had to make do with rice and stuff instead. The food was good but compared to a BBQ? Boriiing...

Soeaking of good food, the accommodations SUCKED. Like really bad. The bathrooms were horrible (I can’t even use the stupid I Not Stupid horrible vegetable joke coz it was too darn bad)!!!!!!

I used six exclamation marks! That’s how bad it was!

That ain't my room; it's one of the boys'.

So after the dinner, the teams practiced for the performance they had to put on the next night! Considering the short practice time, the performances were awesome!

Then Kristin, who gets shaky having to stand in front of large crowds unless she’s hollering at them, announce that the faci’s were putting on performances of their own as well! WTH?!

*cekik Kristin*

The next day, we went jungle trekking. I’m proud to say that I still remember at least half the names of the plants Mister Dorai (sp?) taught us. Hey, half is good enough; don’t ask too much from me at one time.

But I was disappointed that the leeches wouldn’t bite me, even when I went as far as to pluck one of Karen’s leg and place it on my palm. Turns out that the skin of the palm is too thick to bite through for them. Bleh...

Karen on the other hand got to bites! Lucky gal. But she didn’t really want the bites so maybe not.

Tree huggers... literally.

I think the tree is telling Jin Yee a joke. And it seems like it's a good one.

After jungle trekking, we went back to the hall and played Win-Win. It seemed like a suckish game but I suppose it was meaningful on its own way, just like most of the games we played. I don’t really get what the Time Ball game was supposed to teach us about ourselves though, because it just brought out the over-competitiveness in some of the teams.

So next was Obstacle and team Mocha won. All Xingsan had to do was cling onto the girls and guide them (rather forcefully I might add) towards the finish line. So fast.


Time Ball was just throwing a ball around. Erm, I think it was team SS Ark that got first. I think.

Then Pn. Wong challenged them to pass the tennis ball to each other (not throw) in one second. Waliau wei! Beh and Po Yee’s team were so at it! And SS Ark too!

Record was 0.54 seconds by the nugget team I think

I keep forgetting the details. Ish...

The Balloon Game was really intense and fun! Even faci also join in!


So next we had the performance, and all were pretty cool. I especially liked Team SS Ark and Team Forest.

“Smell me!!!” *raises arm to expose armpit*

And

“Beh ah...” *twitches fingers*

XDDDDDDDDDD

If Chun Kit ever reads this and gets mad at me for posting this piccy up, just be glad I posted the one where the umbrella was blocking you.

Errr...

SS Ark won, needless to say. Moi...

*giggles maniacally*

Never knew he could be so gay. And it was very natural. Makes me suspect...

Honestly, I was really impressed by his acting skills. It was really good. Their team was very sporting and cooperative so their play was awesome.

Then we had a performance by Simon, me and the star of the camp: KRISTIN YEO.

Hehe. Simon and Jian Shen were funny in their own way and mine, Joanne, Pei Qi and Doon’s Macarena slash Mission Impossible thingy was cacated.

Then Kristin!!! Yosh! Po Yee, Joanne and I accompanied her but she was so yeng! So cooool! xD

But too bad it was in the dark with flaashing lights so I've nothing be balckmail her with, dammit.

So then we just partied and played the night away. Well not really.

Things died down around 1 or 2 p.m. after more balloon popping and ‘karaoke’. Then it was just a few of us left and a couple others fooling around with the iPods.


Some of us stayed up till three, each with separate issues and then most of us went to bed. I only slept at 4 a.m. and couldn’t even manage to wake up early. And I like waking early during vacations so that we don’t have to fight for the bathroom.

Then we went to the play ground. Joanne, Karen, Doon, Po Yee, Beh, Foo, Jin Yee, Shu Lin, Simon, Michelle and Pn. Tan (shockers, I know). Felt like shouting stupid things across the golf course again like we did on the first day but at the same time, but I wasn’t in the mood.

Saw a dead cat on the road. Ask Simon for the picture. He actually snapped it. Poor cat. The intestines and brain and eyeballs and tongue were squashed out. It wasn’t a pretty sight.

After that we went to play like little kiddies and we saw a caterpillar. Relived my childhood, sort of, on the swings again. And Pn. Tan actually played on the springy-type see-saw! So cute!

Then we went home. Aww...

The stupid bus. Instead of stopping at Kota Kubu Bharu (KKB... *snort*), it went on and on and on until Rawang. We were freakin’ starved to death by then. And the worst part was, when we got there to last night’s events, the heat and the general moodiness totally put off my appetite.

Dammit.

But the chicken rice was good. Even if it wasn’t the ‘sio ke’ rice but white skinned. Heh, racist.

Then we headed back and my parents decided that even though I arrived earlier than 2.30 p.m. and my sis’s gymrama class was later than 2.30, it was more important to fetch my sister first. Okay, I’m being harsh here. But only a little.

So Pn. Tan had to wait for me because I was the last girl to get fetched and she was worried. Paiseh wei. Anyway, my sister took so long to get ready that they ended up fetching me first because it was already way past 2.30.

Then in the car, my bratty sister and I had a fight. Like, hitting each other sort of fight. Stupid girl, don’t know how to take care of my bottle then lay your grubby hands off it. At least you can trust me with yours. That’s the difference.

So after that, I went into one of my mood swings again and became all emo-ish. And my stupid sister, instead of taking a perfectly fine full bottle of water, insisted that my mum buy a new bottle for her. Waste of money, but she got her way. As usual.

And this ‘lovely’ welcome home added onto the other things that happened made me really break down in the car. I was trying to cry as quietly as possible and asked if I could go home.

I really just wanted to get home and into my room and have a full-blown bawling session, but guess what my wonderful parents did?

Totally ignore me and brought me to Sungai Buloh to choose plants.

Choose plants. WTF, man. I chose to stay in the car obviously and slept. Really pooped out by then.
When we got home, it was 6 p.m. and I just went right up to unpack, bathe and flop down to sleep. I was really tired but I can’t relax if I haven’t sorted my things out yet.

Around 9.50 a.m. I woke up to blearily eat dinner and then went right back to sleep again.

And I still couldn’t keep awake during class today! Right after teacher finished discussing, I put my head down and slept again. Preman even thought I was sick! Was he really serious? Was I that bad?

Anyway, all in all, this last year of my librarian years was fun and meaningful in its own ways so I am very glad I went. No regrets.

Going back to sleep soon,

~*JJ*~

P.S.: I'll edit this post soon and get more pictures up. Now my mother is staring at me which means I need to get to sleep.